one more thing,...

This piece of poetry was inspired from a chapter in my past. I was lucky that God gave me sense to get up and leave. Not everyone can do that. In the midst of a relationship with an addict I got lost for a moment, until I got a hold of a pen and paper and these words came out and gave me the strength I needed to leave.  I am posting it in hopes that if you need that same strength or courage my words may inspire you. 

My farewell

My heart has never felt such pain

Pain so great that I waited for my chest to explode 

Just so that it relieves itself, to cease functioning

So not to feel a second more of this great discomfort

But it still beats on

I know what I must do 

And it will be the hardest thing I have to do

But I have no choice

You left me no choice

You and me, once we were beautiful

We were why Shakespeare wrote sonnets

And why God made flowers so fragrant and fruit so sweet

But not anymore

You brought someone into our relationship

She sat there in the room, making herself comfortable

And I tried to ignore your mistress

She walked in my home, slept in my bed and took those long drives with you till dawn

She became your secret obsession

Replacing the flame that once burned so brightly between us

To one that you burned beneath her

Even when she wasn't with you, she was in you

You craved her the way I wanted you to crave me

You would miss her fragrance, her taste

Needing her more and more everyday

Now you lie with her and I all alone

I wonder; "Had I been that crackpipe, would our love still have grown?"

So in the ruins  that you made here for me

Battered, tattered and torn. Broke and all alone

I know that tomorrow I will once again stand tall

While you will be crouched on the floor looking for pieces of her

For a brief thrill only she can give 

As your lips kiss her lips, slowly pulling her in

Inhaling the seductress' poison

I can only hope one day you will wake from her spell

Realizing why and how you lost me

Oh hell baby

I just hope you get well