Two week absence

I took some time to myself after the death of Steve Jobs, simply to re-examine my own life.  Steve Jobs was a dreamer who accomplished his dreams yet was plagued by a vicious disease known as pancreatic cancer.  What impressed me most was his determination to succeed in living and doing his best to confront his illness (at least that was the impression I had). I found that I could relate not just because of my MS, but a few years ago I was diagnosed with renal cancer and it was very close to my pancreas, had it not been caught it might have invaded my pancreas and we might not be discussing this. I was fortunate that it was discovered very early and I had the BEST surgeon/specialist to remove my tumor.

Now there is a word I NEVER thought would leave my lips in reference to myself, tumor. When I had received the initial diagnosis I was devastated. My fear wasn't because of what I might lose, I have enjoyed life, but the damage it would have brought to my parents, sister and my daughters. It is the ones you leave behind that can crush your spirit, then I realized something; we all will die. Morbid but true. It is the one guarantee we were all given with our birth, and accepting death, my own, my spouse's, my parents and even my children allowed me to release any anxiety I might have had. I began to focus on living and taking care of my immediate needs. It did not mean a surrender or to begin an "Oh woe is me" moment, it is not in my nature, I am fierce, powerful and strong. This was just another blip on the screen that was my life and this too shall pass and so it did.

Today I am cancer free, and every year I am scanned to see if that or any other tumors appears. Thankfully, I have been well, and will continue to be well. If not I know whatever challenge or obstacle placed before me I will overcome it, just as I did when jumping over hurdles back in my track and field days. No matter what, the legacy I leave my children and family is a proud one. They will know I was a warrior, and saw challenges not as defeats but inspirations and opportunity for the rising up of my spirit each time. My message to you, do not be afraid and please make certain that you savor life and meet it with a smile.

This post today was written especially for those of you facing troubles and don't see the light at the end of the tunnel. I am here to tell you there is nothing that you cannot achieve. Set your mind to the end goal and be willing to meet a challenge head on with positive anticipation rather than defeat. Your perspective will make the difference, because even if you fail you, won simply because you showed up for YOU.

Quotes to help you find inspiration: "It is time for us all to stand and cheer for the doer, the achiever, the one who recognizes the challenge and does something about it." -Vince Lombardi

It is not the mountain we conquer, but ourselves. -Sir Edmund Hillary